Fritz-My future dog!

Today as I was making that lovely drive from Mobile to Auburn an idea popped in my head! I WANT A DOG! When I'm a Junior in College I'm going to get a Beagle! They may shed a ton but they are so cute! I have to have one! So it is decided I am getting a Beagle puppy when I am a junior and have my own apartment. Well then another idea popped in my head! WHAT WILL HIS NAME BE? So then I went through all my favorite things. Disney Movies? thought about Hercules or Zues but then i thought well i am in college I think i should maybe stay away from naming my dog after a Disney Movie. Then i moved on to Movie-- Well as most of my friends know im obbsessed with the movie the Family Stone but there really are no good names in that movie besides Thad and Gus...so those are options. Then I moved on to other movies. Harry and Ron are options too. Then i moved on to T.V. and most of you know I LOVE Vampire Dairies so Stefan and Damon are options for the dogs name. oh and BTW the puppy will be a boy :) Then I moved on to favorite books.....My favorite book of all time is The Swiss Family Robinson, i have read it like a million times and this is where the birth of my puppies' name came! My future Beagle Puppy will be names Fritz! After my favorite Character in my Favorite Book! What is your favorite?

Bio Test with God.

The release of stress is a great feeling, to complete something that you have worked so hard for.  I just completed a bio test that I studied very hard for and it felt so good to walk out of that exam room. The test was hard as mess but I was okay with that because it was simply over. Now I am in Starbucks enjoying a lovely cup of coffee thinking about how I do not have to study for a biology test today! I was so nervous about this test because I hadn’t studied as much as I usually do for bio test because I felt like I  knew it all, and I did. I had seen all these things before, but I was still so nervous. I said my prayer to myself like I always do before big test and I took a deep breath and went on with the test. The test was hard but I felt a sense of calmness about it because I think God was with me. Funny the way He works, if you need him to he will come be with you while you take a Biology test, that’s how GREAT MY GOD IS! God was there for me when I called upon him! I think he realized that a bunch of people were praying for me on this test and saw how nervous I was and came to be with me, like seriously my GOD is so awesome that he comes to be with me in my time of need, whether it be a biology test or a drive home he is there no matter what! My God is AWESOME and is always there for me!

But I trust in your unfailing love;
   my heart rejoices in your salvation.

Psalm 13:5

This is a whole Blog dedicated to my best friend Eric Elmore. He is the sweetest boy you will ever meet and treats me like a princess and im so blessed to have him in my life. This boy loves God to the very core of his being, which is an inspiratiion to us all! If you get to meet him you are lucky, because he is amazing! I am four hours away from him and i miss him more and more everyday! I love you ERIC!!

Letting Go.

Letting go is hard. If you have or have had someone in your life that you have loved or love the hardest thing to do is see them walk away. In my past experiences in relationships I have usually been the one that has walked away but for those of you who know how it feels to see the person you love happy with someone else, it’s hard.  The hardest part is knowing that that person you love has replaced you and no longer has the same feelings for you. These past weeks have been a struggle for me just to see so many happy couples and knowing that everyone is happy but me. THIS SHOULDN’T BE THE CASE! I love the Lord with all my heart and that should be enough for me. I hate that I have come to the conclusion that in order to be happy I MUST have a boyfriend but it is not they key to happiness. Yes, do not get me wrong when you have found a person who makes you happy it’s a good thing, with a healthy Christ centered relationship can be a great thing for people. I have truly been struggling very hard with this and have even asked a good friend of mine to be my accountability partner in the process that I and he are going through the same thing. I am letting go of everything that is keeping me from Christ. I am letting go of the fact that boys do not equal happiness. God equals happiness.

You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. Psalm 32:7-8

Differences...

The other day I had to write a 500 word essay about an interview I had with someone who is different from me in four ways. I choose to “interview” one of my best friends, Miguel, seeing that I didn’t read the assignment till the night before it was due I didn’t exactly interview him. I more along the lines of guessimated what Miguel would say, but it got me thinking about how different Miguel and I truly are but what great friends we are. Miguel, Eric, Frankie, Kyle, and Eamon are 5 boys who mean the world to me, but I really started to realize how different I truly am from ALL of them. Why is that people who are different get along so well? I think it is again all in God’s plan. I know God blessed me with these boys for a reason, yes they all at some point have driven me crazy but my life would be nothing without them. They complete me. I know how cliché is that? But it is true, without them I would not be where I am today from just me in general to my relationship with Christ to just the way I take on each day, they have taught me more than I could have ever expected, they are my BEST friends. Within each of those 5 boys is a heart of gold. They all have their own ways of showing that. Kyle, the soon to be preacher/missionary, will text me every day and somehow we end up talking about how we can pray for each other that day, I love it. Miguel, sometimes we bicker and fight but in the end he is always the one telling me I can do anything I set my mind too. Eric, the sweetheart, tells me every day that he loves me and misses me and can’t wait for me to come home. Frankie, music man, this boy always has a new song to show me and a new hug to give me. Eamon, my personal advice column, I sometimes will just text him a question to get his opinion and it gives me an opportunity to talk it out with someone. These boys all have something to offer to my own personality they are sweet, sincere, and very cute! Again they complete me. So take a moment and think about the people in your daily life and see how different you truly are from them because together you make a whole. I am different from each of these boys in a different way and they have helped me become the person I am today. How are you different from the people you love?

Spanish Class.

I sit in Spanish class every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I HATE Spanish class, only because I cannot speak Spanish.I feel like a lost puppy when I sit and listen to her speak. Why is it so hard to learn another language, I am awful at Spanish. As I sit in class and just stare at her mouth moving and not knowing but about every other word, this is when I find myself wanting to speak Spanish more. I sit and get so frustrated with myself but then I have to stop and remember God has me doing this for a purpose. I think I sit through this frustration just to see how it feels to not be able to speak a language. My goal when I graduate is to be a Spanish speaking nurse, and go and help people who are sick with Language barrier between the Doctors and patients, maybe even help an Orphanage in an poverty stuck part of America where the kids are dominantly Spanish speaking children. I would love to be able to speak the language of kids who are sick and just need some comfort, and its hard to get comfort out of a language that you do not understand. So what I am asking for with this blog is PRAYERS! I need lots of them, I am very passionate about what I want to do, but I am just struggling with the fact that I am a beginner and in 5 years be able to speak it. So just keep me in your Prayers, cause I would love to speak Spanish by the time I graduate.

reminiscing

When I walk around campus and I walk through places with lots of tree I always find myself reminiscing. As many of you probably do not know is that I think about my past more than I should. The other day I was avoiding studying and started reading old messages on Facebook, and I stumble upon a message conversation of a past relationship with a guy. I had forgotten all about this message when I started reading I almost started crying thinking about all the fun we had together. Then I went back and found every message I had gotten from a boy I had been in a relationship with. While reading them I kept asking myself Why did this end, again replaying events from the past. I wish there was a magic button to erase the bad stuff and just remember the good stuff, but I think that magic button is God. When I get into sad moods like that I always pray for God to take away my bad memories and all the hurt I went through. So instantly does it go away? No, cause I also think it is very important to learn from your past. Then I thought I need to delete these messages but I couldn't make myself do it.  They are good memories I want to keep, but I just wish the bad feelings would go away.  These past relationships were all learning opportunities to teach myself more about...well myself. So I guess what I'm getting to is do not live in the past like me(which im working on). Move on with your life and forget the bad memories, but learn from them. Occasionally look back on the good memories get a good laugh or smile and keep on moving forward with life.

'Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,'

Philippians 3:13

Why don't we want to get out of bed in the morning?

I know for me the hardest part of the day is getting out of my bed, why is that? Yes, we are physically tired and our bodies desire more sleep, but is that all the reason? As I sat up in bed this morning thinking about how much I wanted to just lay back down and go right to sleep I thought if I did that I would sleep my life away. Don't get me wrong a good nap can make you feel like a new person but sometimes sleeping can get in the way of life. Does God sleep? Does He take a break during the day? We should be thankful for the rest we get when the creator of the world never slows down, but when its time to get up we should not complain and just do it. I wish I had that strength, you know when you play name games in a new group and they ask you if you could have any super power? What would it be? and why? I think my super power would be to be able to get up every morning fully energized and rested and maybe if I could fly...that would be okay with me. To the people who get up every morning with no problem...teach me your ways.

Life Movie.

When i was younger i use to sit in the car with my family and think about how i thought my life was a movie, and how i thought one day my movie was going to end and i was going to get to watch someone else in their own movie, that never happened. My movie is still playing and still going strong. My life is no where near a fairytale but its enjoyable. It has had a few climaxes and some very good actors and actresses. My friends are pretty much the reason my movie has been so good. I have a friend named Kyle who at one point was writing a screen play basically about his life and friends, i was always curious to what he would say about me in his movie but i always was scared to ask him just in case he forgot to put me in it. This all leads back to the thought that everyone is living in their own movie and they choose the actors and actresses and the events that happen. People live their own movies. I recently started college here at the beautiful Auburn University, leaving behind five pretty amazing friends back home. These people all have very different movies playing, as i visited home i started to realize that i wanted to keep them all in my movie exactly the way i left them. I wanted them to be the same actor with the same storyline when i returned home, but that soon changed when  i realized they cant stay in my movie forever, movies are sad and movies are happy, they have to make their own movie. They will always be in my movie because they are my best actors, but they also are in their own movies and have to make their own movies and make their own movies great! So live your life like its a movie and make it a good one, but be sure to make it mean something have a point. Impact someone with your movie, and make sure your actors and actresses are the best you can find.