Tubby Tubby

So today as I tried on my new bathing suits for spring break, of course got myself all worked up over not looking the way I want. In a few weeks it will have been one year since my back surgery and I had the surgery to look better and straighter but in the process of not being able to do alot while recovering I have gained the freshman 15 and it truly has me upset. I hate not being happy in my own skin but God made us all beautiful in his image, so when we are saying we do not like the way we look we are saying we are saying we do not like God's image he has created us in. I should be so thankful that God got me through this surgery free of complications and allowed me to have a speedy recovery! So why are we so focused are making ourselves look like a magazine models. Yes, do not get me wrong i would love to look like a Victoria secret model but let us all just face the facts that not many people do. Yes I can work really hard to get a body like theirs but i am in college and that takes time which an average college kid does not have! So as I stood in from of my mirror today crying over not having what I want I just cried and cried and then I just sucked it up and said I'm going to be thankful for the healthy body God has given me and work on when I get back from spring break cause I am to the point where I'm not comfortable in my own skin...it is not to impress anyone else I just want to get back to the way I use to look. I want to loose the freshman 15 and be happy with my body again.